the library.

the library.
typically, I can be found here. usually somewhere on the second floor. sometimes accompanied by a friend, sometimes with headphones and coffee. I sometimes fantasize about how wonderful it would be to have a spontaneous opportunity - like in the movies how it just so happens that all your friends congregate at the same place at the same time and end up doing something really fun and exciting. The library is not the place for that - even though every time I hear footsteps on the stairs, the creaking door open, I can't help but hope for a familiar smile, something to distract me (even temporarily) or someone with a far-fetched idea that would justify leaving this place and forgetting my homework for a while.

sometimes the library is my escape. sometimes i sneak away to the quiet solace, hoping for peace within my heart and a calm to the constant worry of my mind. even if studying is what occupies me and creates stress, at least i'm not thinking about my future, missing the past, or regretting not doing enough in the present. the library provides a place to completely be absorbed in school. sure, there are lots of nerdy engineers here with tables full of paperwork sprawled out and highlighted, the occasional female engineer student, and of course - the infamous wheelie backpacks.

tonight, the library is a chance to spend time meeting God. tonight on the second floor, i have indulged in scripture not out of nightly tradition, or out of guilty obligation, but pure delight. soaking up the words like a dry sponge, anxious to absorbing every word. tonight i am thankfully and undeservingly resting on the promise that my heart is being ferociously protected, nothing will allow separation from my Jesus. not even the library.

I feel refreshed. now its time to get back to the homework i suppose.